The Dance of Life

I came home from work today and I look at our apartment and I asked myself, “So which personality of me should I talk to first?” And I thought, “hmm.. the house is a mess, Wyatt wants to play, the bills need sorting and updating, the laundry is waiting, Mike is expecting me to send some mails, I am tired, I need a shower, I need sleep, I am hungry I haven’t had lunch and very soon I have to pick up Helena and cook dinner, not to mention the closets are begging to be visited and oh I can go on
and on.”

Is there a way I can somehow detach from all these personalities I play every day and concentrate to each one, one at a time? Then I remember what my sister was just telling me the other night about praying. Oh my god, did I completely abandoned my spiritual personality and let my other selves: employee, wife, mother, daughter, friend personalities took over my life? No wonder. And no wonder my kids don’t even know how to pray the “the Lord’s Prayer.” Well, I must admit I don’t pray “Our Father” myself, at least until I’ve realized that that is our Lord’s Prayer to show us how to pray and not necessarily pray those exact words but still. I did, pray exactly how it was written when I was a kid and I still think that whether it’s an example of the Lord to teach us how and what to pray or pray the same exact prayer, children still need to learn that as we did and let them decide on their own when the time is right, right?

Hmm… see what happens to you when you let yourself be converted to different denominations? Makes me smile just thinking about it. Though it IS good to keep an open mind. Then I ask myself, do I really value my spiritual self. Or am I just avoiding what it does to me because whenever I do, it involves a lot of facing my weaknesses and all the bad actions around me then I tend to ask so many questions it scares me. If only the world we live in is not so full of wickedness, wouldn’t that be wonderful?

At the end of the day I can only say to myself, I should always value myself, who I am, what I am and do all I can to shine. And be a good example to my children.

Off I go.